What do you do when you seem to have lost your faith and hope as well as the direction in life? Some say "Give it to God", pray, seek outside guidance or just keep moving and hope for the best. I don't know the right answer to this question, but am certain that it is not a singular action. I am fairly knowledagble in the writngs of the Bible, but ignorant in the day to day application of whatever theologians may interpret those writing to require in a specific manner. Giving an issue to God, sounds great, but I believe that it take more than that to reconcile a situation. God did not give us brains and analytical skills to pass every challenge off to Him.Life seems to be a test of our ability to learn and use what HE gave us to honor HIM. I have failed miserably in that challenge on sooooo many levels. But that is a different post for another time.
They say "money don't buy happiness", I agree but it opens up basic options to pursue it.In my situation, I need counsel and guidance in correcitng some bad decisions I have made in the past. That guidance requires money and THAT is a challenge all on it's own in today's financial environment. We are barely (and I MEAN barely) paying the monthy bills with NO extras. It is kind of a "Catch-22" scenario. I cannot work because I have no work permit, To get a work permit, I have to have some things settled down south. Those things costs alot of money (at least). I need ot work to earn that money ...and back to the start, I cannot work because I have no work permit (or job). So you see, I am caught in a vicious financial whirlpool. We are being sucked down the drain faster and faster. WHAT TO DO???
I am skeptical in contacting State and/or Federal agencys because (1) I do not trust them (2) they are part of the problem as well. I do not want to digress into a political tirade, but my political attitude is not one of trusting our government for my personal wellbeing or security. They have thier own agendas that concerns themselves and their own self-promoting motives which eliminates the little man (like me) that is below their importance.
Why am I posting this? Well, (for one thing) this is my therapy platform and I need to get it out in the open so I can try to wrap my head around it, but also see if anyone that reads this has other ideas. It seems that my Life GPS is out of sync and I do not know which way to go. I have even considered giving up and stopping all together. But I am too stupid and hard-headed for that. I am more inclined to "go down swinging" than that. I am the "world's greatest procrastinator" in making a stop decision. Until I figure out a direction/solution, I will continue to survive one day at a time and sometimes even one hour at a time just to see what will happen next.
If anyone has any ideas let me know. Until the next time:
May God Bless YOU and YOURS
Gene
What brave honesty in your blog today. I'm sorry your life GPS seems to be on the blink, but I like the metaphor. In most emergency training they tell you that when disaster strikes, stay where you are. If you become lost on a hike, your plane crashes or your car wrecks, the advice is stay where you are until help arrives. To turn your metaphor around, stay where you are. Not physically, but emotionally and spiritually. Don't make any big changes until help arrives. That help may be good advice, an intuitive flash, an answer during prayer or just a strong gut feeling that this is what to do next. I believe you will be led. You are as strong and smart as you are brave for sharing so personally. The answer will come.
ReplyDeletei am not strong, smart OR brave .... the word "Desperate" comes to mind though... But thanks for your insight and wisdom :)
ReplyDeleteYou actually are strong and brave. Those very same people don't see that about themselves .. it really means that you have the will to continue and that what's in front of you doesn't so much take courage as it's about just getting through a day at a time in other words you have to. We call that strong and brave. Ask anyone who's been called a hero how they felt. Chin up, I believe help will come to you when you discover what fork in the road to take.
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